The main symptoms could clearly identify the state of mind is precisely that, but I really do not feel, as often happen in these cases, bitter. I feel good. It is a curious mental state, carefree, as a kind of prison antihuman aimed away from itself all that is contrary to happiness. Thought I would have assumed at this age that happiness is something lacking, and I knew years ago that was so, and it would take to assume, but finally I think I'm the target, and not knowing what to think, have bowed to inexplicable human happiness, ignorance, loss of all feeling for the prógimo and loss of touch with true reality. Is what many today call a sabbatical period, but that's not really, but a claim of abandonment of leadership itself, a conversion to nowhere, an incredible change in the thinking of anyone, a time when everything is so cold, so absurd, that even death has lost its meaning, and there is not even want to look for him, or her, or of life.
however unwittingly or anything, the answers come without questions, and if there is no death without life, is that this is the worst disease you can catch deadly. The sense that life is a gift, from my point of view from father to son (where I say father, mother, say) in the other, a God who do not seek, but presuppose before his death, and therefore never will realize his mistake, and that life is no longer a gift, and becomes a mortal punishment.
The change is that, well maybe that before to raise this response should first be a question, and now the question is not planet anywhere, is that even this conclusion, it is up to date, has not any impact on me whatsoever, but quite the opposite is something I think to waste time, and not something I would think the mere fact that it is important. It is not, or why or anything. Neither that, nor to follow our instincts to where we should follow. But not yet released enough estoi survival instinct, the moral at the end of the day, and to use the rest of instincts freely. And it is not important whether or not the other liberal and destroy my survival instincts, and that together form a set that I should respect as a natural part of myself. It is also true that rationality and logic are naturally part of myself, but these two do not go anywhere, and if one should be limited to live, it is not necessary for rationality and logic, but only instincts. If my rationality and my logic is exempt from worries disappear, and displayed the instincts, and that's how you stop thinking, just to live. And if estoi now in this transition that will ultimately limit myself only to live, to live freely, something that estoi convinced that the only way to live and enjoy, you must remove the unit formed by human instincts. The survival instinct layer to the other, and the can not live freely, but even without it we could live, maybe.
As I say, no questions, no answers, and there are free time, boredom, not worry or cognitive intent. And that therefore affects the analysis of the conclusion, as now, because the responses do not arise from questions and concerns but no free time, the conclusion does not matter to me, and therefore the mental state change at all. I do not feel sad or happy over me, nor make me want to punch anyone for being blamed for the harsh reality, but simply after such conclusion, nothing is pure and simple boredom ... sabbatical is a time of all, incredibly careless ...
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